This is exciting – I started running again a week ago and I’ve managed to get myself out 4 times in the last week.

I’ll be honest here, the motivation is hard – I’m not good at pushing myself. I mentioned in my last running update that I’ve been trying to do some interval training – following the lamp posts in the last mile or so and going hard, then going back to a comfortable pace in an attempt to increase my speed.

When I’m running hard, it’s not actually that bad – it’s the starting and stopping that seem the hardest.

I’m getting faster each run, but it’s still not fast enough. I tell myself I’ll push through and try to get good splits, but when it comes to it, I just can’t muster up the mental strength to do it.

I have no idea how some people run so fast for so long. I’ve been reading a lot of running blogs lately and it’s admirable the distances some are putting in.

I try not to beat myself up too much about my short, 3 mile runs at a slow pace – although I’d like to start doing 5 mile runs again and I could at my comfortable pace, but I want to work on getting faster.

To go long and hard, I’d have to start putting in a lot more time. Time which I don’t have unless I cut down on the amount of time I spend blogging over on my lifestyle blog, which I don’t want to do.

Even when I’ve been running consistently, the speed is just something that has never really come easily for me. I wonder if most other people have the same mind talk, but also the motivation to over come it. Where as I make excuses to not push that bit harder.

So as I’m not willing to put in the time and effort, I probably need to get the fuck over myself and I remember that 3 miles is better than 0 miles. And probably more than most of the population has ran today.

The only person you should try and be better than, is the person you were yesterday.

If I stuck at it for more than a few months, maybe I’d see some real improvements. If I did cross training, maybe I’d notice a change.

I don’t even want to be a hardcore marathoner. But it would be nice to run 10 minute miles consistently.

It would also be nice to over take one single person. #awkward.